16 May 2020

[Content Warning] Shrinking . . .

The world's worlds
Have shrunk to a house;
Mine to a room
- I have lost my garden.
Who will survive?

Copyright © Kayleen White, 2020 (where this date is different to the year of publication, it is because I did the post some time ago and then used the scheduling feature to delay publication) I take these photographs and undertake these writings – and the sharing of them – for the sake of my self expression. I am under no particular illusions as to their literary or artistic merit, and ask only that any readers do not have any undue expectations. If you consider me wrong, then publish me – with full credit and due financial recompense, of course :)

14 May 2020

[Content Warning: Personal Suffering] Reflection

Am I functioning, they ask
Yes, I reply;
Is that not a good thing, they ask
No, I reply.
How so, they ask
Because, I reply
I am still in pain,
Those who gave me the pain
are still in their pain,
And society, above all else,
the totality of all of us,
is in pain
because of our pains. 


Copyright © Kayleen White, 2020 (where this date is different to the year of publication, it is because I did the post some time ago and then used the scheduling feature to delay publication) I take these photographs and undertake these writings – and the sharing of them – for the sake of my self expression. I am under no particular illusions as to their literary or artistic merit, and ask only that any readers do not have any undue expectations. If you consider me wrong, then publish me – with full credit and due financial recompense, of course :)

[Content Warning] Cross posting: More from my future autobiography: on education

This originally appeared on my political blog, at https://politicalmusingsofkayleen.blogspot.com/2020/05/more-from-my-future-autobiography-on.html.


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As I  mentioned recently, following a radio interview, I started work on an autobiography. Completing it is going to take years - apart from having limited spare time and energy (especially given a major family illness) and the technical challenges of writing well. I've pasted below another extract from a chapter which addresses some of what I experienced in high school in the 1970s.


One of the downsides of Mackay - actually, other places as well - was the teachers at the high school who tried to use my academic performance against my sister. Maybe they were so stupid they thought being compared to someone else like was “motivating” rather than a source of despair, something that would lead to hating school and irritation with the person being used as the “standard”? Maybe they were so burned out and embittered by their experiences - and I rejected the suggestions of some of my teachers that I get into teaching because of the behaviour of my disaffected, disengaged and disruptive fellow students (the curriculum was built on rote learning and around making us into cogs for the economy) -  that they enjoyed the spitefulness of this. Maybe their instruction had been to use this, and they were so unprofessional / incompetent that they didn’t notice it wasn’t working, or they did and, Titanic like, kept sailing on, not knowing what to do. 
Maybe their upbringing was so bereft of love that they genuinely thought competition was “good”.
Everyone is unique, and FFS, everything - medical treatment, education, everything - should be adapted to suit the uniqueness of each and every individual. Otherwise is just demeaning all of us, including those doing the blandifying, into cogs on a Ford-assembly line. That harms each and every one of us, robs the world of massive amounts of talent (how many Michaelangelos, Eleanor Roosevelts, and Albert Einsteins have been lost to the world in extreme poverty? How many Nicola Teslas, Florence Nightingales,and Marie Curies lost in the mendacity of a mundane education system? How many Leonardo da Vincis, Rachel Carsons,and Nelson Mandelas have been lost to inequality of a society - especially a stupid, violent society like the USA [thank the Goddess I don’t live there!] which kills so many people who are different?), and winds up forcing society into putting resources into bottling up the problems it has created?
I saw all that in Mackay’s Milton Street high school.
I saw an Indigenous kid who had a first rate mind left isolated and locked out of opportunity by the racist hostility of teachers and the community (I offered [when he was giving me a hard time, actually, which surprised him] to help him with his homework once, but he lived in a camp out of town), I saw kids getting forced into stereotypes from the course choices they were “presented”, and I saw kids being alienated by the educational - cog-making - “system”.
My sister, by the way, turned out to be a magnificent woman - an outstanding mother, a caring woman, and someone with a career in a caring area that society downplays - well, downplays until times like now: I am writing the first draft of this while in the COVID-19 pandemic lockdown.
I don’t think my sister realises how much of how she turned out was innate to her, but I also have to give credit to her husband, and her children, who also helped bring out her inner talents.
Going back to Milton Street high school in the 70s, we had some teachers who were also trying to change the system - or buck it, and bring out the best in the kids they were teaching.
I also saw other kids who were trying to do the same - this was when the counter-cultural revolution, or the “New Age” was big. Hippies were, to use modern lingo, “a thing”, as was peace, love, and communes - I’m trying not to visualise that accompanied by a cloud of dubious legality and a long “maaaaaan”.
I can still remember telling off one of my friends when he mocked one of the girls at that school for advocating for a more loving society. And he readily acceded my point: the culture then - and now - was built on engaging with friends (“mateship”) by using unhealthy types and degrees of “making fun” of each other and those who were outside that particular group. It was to his credit that he could see that, but it was to none of our credit that we didn’t look more actively more for wholesome ways of being. 
A couple of times I mustered my spoons of courage and tried to talk to my teachers about the unfairness of what they were doing with my sister. However, I was a bit intimidated by their status, my eloquence was limited, and those particular teachers didn’t see either of us as humans, just cogs labelled “kid” to be given a notional listening to, patted on the head, and fed into the next part of the machine. 
My sister and I survived the experience, and went on to live our lives. I’ve sometimes wondered how many didn’t? I went back to my 25 year high school reunion - the only one held, and some people had surprisingly thrived, some had drifted, and others were still suffering from bullying and other experiences. (And I had a big surprise for everyone.) Not all students were there. 
Our society’s journey in education has progressed since then, not always for better: may it get better - inclusive, individualised, and beyond turning out cogs for the economy - for the sake of all us.



Copyright © Kayleen White, 2020 (where this date is different to the year of publication, it is because I did the post some time ago and then used the scheduling feature to delay publication) I take these photographs and undertake these writings – and the sharing of them – for the sake of my self expression. I am under no particular illusions as to their literary or artistic merit, and ask only that any readers do not have any undue expectations. If you consider me wrong, then publish me – with full credit and due financial recompense, of course :)

11 May 2020

A Regiment of the Rangers of the Inner Plane Prepares


This story is the third in a sequence. The previous stories can be found here, and here. A fourth will come in due course. I had started developing this idea of Rangers years ago, for example - here, before postponing it.

As with so many things in life (and death, when one remembers to consider and include those who are discarnate), preparation is key.
In our case, we had three weeks, and had planned five meetings of various groups over that time.
The first meeting was to allow our diviners and scouts, people who could move unobtrusively around in the astral, to work with those of the Sixth Brigade to see what they could find out about the former soldier from the Second World War’s eastern front who had been causing so much astral havoc - and the network of entities he was connected to.
And it was big - but weak.
He’d niggled every person he could find with some sort of disaffection - more than nine out of ten had either not responded or had rejected his invisible urgings, but seven decades of communism and the different set of problems that came after the hope of the fall of that regime had created a lot of disaffected people . . .
However, those this entity had reached were mostly individualistic - none of them wanted to be beholden to a large organisation or movement again. He had to work hard to persuade them to think or feel the way he wanted - and he was able to absorb the negativity they created by their actions when he was successful, so he had accumulated strength, as had some of those he influenced.
But there was no cohesion, and there was significant attrition - people lost to loving relationships, the joys and challenges of raising a family, the mood-lifting influence of friends, even personal growth or spiritual choices.
The entity had to struggle to regain more entities to control than were lost, and relied on inequality, poverty, and repression to create disaffected people - and, in some cases, to exacerbate fairly normal life challenges into overwhelming problems.
And that was when the entity struck, often through dreams initially, and once a toehold of influence was there, through subtle influences even while the victims were awake.
Almost none of them realised consciously what was happening - although most did when they slept. At most, their dissatisfaction with their genuinely terrible life circumstances came with an edge of discomfort, an uneasy feeling as if their conscience was prodding them . . .
Well, actually, their consciences, in the form of their Guides, were flat out haranguing them, but often not getting through the shields of negativity that had been implanted and built in their auras.
Normally, when people experience something unpleasant, something will counterbalance that - a friend, a family member, hopefully a better turn of events in their life - even if briefly, but these people had been isolated, urged to turn away from friends and allies, and a little astral shield was enough to accrete a shield of negativity, much as a pearl builds around the minor irritation of a piece of grit.
So the first task would be to exacerbate the disunity amongst those in this network, and then balance, heal and strengthen their Guides in an attempt to guide them into reversing their decisions.
This would be undertaken by the Sixth Brigade, and the work with these victims’ Guides would commence a week before our main action.
This preliminary work was the start of us learning to work together, mostly astrally, but with some physical communication as well.
The physical communication would have normal internet security precautions, but in the astral those communicating had to learn, know, and be able to recognise the energy signatures of their counterparts even under stressful situations.
It helped that we had been taught and practised these skills during our training.
Our NCOs would also use their training and watch for anyone doing any action that went beyond public defence to imposing their will on another person.
If someone was not harming others, they had free will, and could use it to choose to be angry, or bitter: our job wasn’t to make them better people - particularly incarnates: our job was to stop them imposing their wills on others, to stop them forcing other people to be angry, or bitter, or afraid.
One of our NCOs’ tasks was the watch the division between right and wrong.
And on the right side of things, we also started allocating some active tasks for us to get involved in, once everyone else was doing theirs and didn’t need any guidance from our experience.
One set of triangles would work on the etheric, and would generate and project feelings of self-worth, confidence, and strength (one triangle per emotion), to help people break free of the control that was being imposed on them.
Another set of triangles would work on generating empathy, happiness (joy was a bit of a stretch, but that was the ideal), and inner peace on the astral levels where the target entities were.
The final set of triangles would project patience, empathy, and love - but on the astral levels where the Guides of these people were operating.
Generating and projecting such emotions was also a part of our training.
It was a long evening, but we all felt it well worth it as we headed our individual ways after it.
Now to wait for the night of the operation itself.




Copyright © Kayleen White, 2020 (where this date is different to the year of publication, it is because I did the post some time ago and then used the scheduling feature to delay publication) I take these photographs and undertake these writings – and the sharing of them – for the sake of my self expression. I am under no particular illusions as to their literary or artistic merit, and ask only that any readers do not have any undue expectations. If you consider me wrong, then publish me – with full credit and due financial recompense, of course :)